It is amazing how I let time slip away and I seem to pull away from the few things that I know will keep me grounded and somewhat calm through the tough days. The few things I know which help me are listening to music (any music)… this includes humming/singing along, swaying, and even dancing in the living room. Other things which help me are reading, writing, meditating, and crying. I also enjoy taking photos and sharing them. However, when I am in a dark place my brain seems to forget all of these things which I know without a doubt will help me. It is as if there is a large garge-type bay door that completely closes off my frontal lobe and I cannot think about anything except all the things in my past which are negative and harmful to my mental health. Why do I do that? I really cannot answer.

What I do know is that I need to keep up with this site so that I remain strong in my resolve to be here for a long time for my adult children. We are all going through “stuff”… we are all good some days and dark on others, but we have each other and that will help us on days we cannot see through the fog on our own. Find the light… find your light and when possible share your light for and with others. Sometimes that is all we can do.

I have been on some great hikes in the past year, but my depression has help me back from taking the time to post about them. From today forward I am planning to stay on top of this site so that I can share and help myself get through some of the dark days. I will need encourgement … I will need to trust myself… but I know I am able to do better every day.

So, I will post some photos from the past year and set my calendar to remind me every Monday to write and share. I deserve to be treated kindly from myself and I start that today.